Bittersweet ending...

In life, as in art, some endings are bittersweet. Especially when it comes to love. Sometimes fate throws two lovers together only to rip them apart. Sometimes the hero finally makes the right choice but the timing is all wrong. And, as they say, timing is everything. Looks like this story might just have a tragical ending.

It happend all so quickly but so expected. Was waiting for this for a really long time. So want to know what happend? It all started approximately 5 years ago. I mentioned mister X in my first post and said that it's a really long story which I think must be explained. So I, as a classic romantic noticed a guy which was really nothing special but had something that kept me interested. The whole story with us started pretty childishly and I should have known it wont end in a good way.
So I was starting high school at that time going through a new phase of me being me, and there was always him reaching for something I knew I don't want.
I never knew I could feel the way I did when I was with him and the feeling was stronger every year, taking in knowledge all the things he did, all the days destroyed and all the times I said I don't want it anymore, knowing I deserve something more. Just the touch of his hand felt like I was on the top of the world, but one thing about being on the top of the world.. it gives you a long, long way to fall. And I was falling, for a really long time.

And you come to a point when the person you once loved becomes the one you can't stand to look at, you can't see the name displayed on your mobile phone when he calls, you'd rather stay in the dormitory for the weekend and don't go home just so you wouldn't see him, hear about him, talk with him,.....
Again here came in act my girls. They both agreed on making a strong ending to the whole thing, but as we know it's easier said than done. But I'm holding on to it.
I know the past will always be with me, just waiting to mess with the present. But it's on me to decide if I'll let it or ignore it.

Yesterday just had to go to a mall and buy something new. It was just a shirt but it made me happy for the whole day. Also made a whole plan for the weekend ,meanwhile also how to revenge to mister X but there's something I should know:
One bad thing about making a deal with the devil is, he always comes to collect.

Write back after the weekend,
You know you love me
gg

Just sth to start with

While walking through the city today my mind went from carefree to having so much on my mind
I couldn't even imagine I could have.So while I was walking the wind was blowing. It felt so good on my skin, it felt like a wind of change. But at that time I finally found
out that maybe things don't always end happily ever after and all I really need at the time is spending time with my girls on the garden
and forgeting about all the problems with mister X.
So I decided I'll forget about the princ charming and enjoy the beautiful sun and the summer that's about to come.
Everyday speciality on our menu is why is all so complicated in love, why every girl dreams about finding her Prince Charming,and she most likely never does.
So just like angels or maybe devils for mister X two girls walked into my life. I'll name them S and K. K is full of energy. She is a dancer and a really good one. Having two children and a husband she still manages to stay in shape and look great in pj's or in the most glamorous dress you could imagine. Wearing her red hair like silk and looking just gorgeous. She's always full of advices about man and she can always get you in the great mood.
Than here is S. She is a beautiful blond girl. Always dressed up, still single and looking for the ONE, but we all know that of all 100% of a man, you can not get all the procentage, so we three girls decided to be satisfied with only 70,5%.So let's get back to S. I could talk about her all day long. Tall, blond, sophisticated.....well i only need one word gorgeous.
So us girls got together in a strange way. I knew both of them because we all live in a small the most beautiful town. We clicked immediately and now there isn't a day we don't hear each other.
So this afternoon as ussual we drank coffe on K's garden and gossip. Going through all of our problems that came up that day and about the ones that might appear in the future. Making all the planes how to solve them in any situation. The story about mister X and us three girls is very long and updating every day. Will stay in touch with all the spicy gossip until than

You know you love me,

xoxo