Bittersweet ending...

In life, as in art, some endings are bittersweet. Especially when it comes to love. Sometimes fate throws two lovers together only to rip them apart. Sometimes the hero finally makes the right choice but the timing is all wrong. And, as they say, timing is everything. Looks like this story might just have a tragical ending.

It happend all so quickly but so expected. Was waiting for this for a really long time. So want to know what happend? It all started approximately 5 years ago. I mentioned mister X in my first post and said that it's a really long story which I think must be explained. So I, as a classic romantic noticed a guy which was really nothing special but had something that kept me interested. The whole story with us started pretty childishly and I should have known it wont end in a good way.
So I was starting high school at that time going through a new phase of me being me, and there was always him reaching for something I knew I don't want.
I never knew I could feel the way I did when I was with him and the feeling was stronger every year, taking in knowledge all the things he did, all the days destroyed and all the times I said I don't want it anymore, knowing I deserve something more. Just the touch of his hand felt like I was on the top of the world, but one thing about being on the top of the world.. it gives you a long, long way to fall. And I was falling, for a really long time.

And you come to a point when the person you once loved becomes the one you can't stand to look at, you can't see the name displayed on your mobile phone when he calls, you'd rather stay in the dormitory for the weekend and don't go home just so you wouldn't see him, hear about him, talk with him,.....
Again here came in act my girls. They both agreed on making a strong ending to the whole thing, but as we know it's easier said than done. But I'm holding on to it.
I know the past will always be with me, just waiting to mess with the present. But it's on me to decide if I'll let it or ignore it.

Yesterday just had to go to a mall and buy something new. It was just a shirt but it made me happy for the whole day. Also made a whole plan for the weekend ,meanwhile also how to revenge to mister X but there's something I should know:
One bad thing about making a deal with the devil is, he always comes to collect.

Write back after the weekend,
You know you love me
gg